I know she still loves me, I know she hasn’t left me but I have never been this sad. I have never felt this much emptiness ,I try to fill it with books, movies but nothing works I just end breaking down. All I want is to hear are her assurances, Her declaration of her love to me. Is it too much to ask?
I check my phone every other minute, during the day, at night, I write to her, though no replies are forth coming But I have to believe that she wants to, she feels as bad, She just can’t contact me, not right now anyway….this believe keeps me sane but for how long?
This is just the first day How am I to take the next months, years? Just how?……does it get any better?